Thoughts:
1) The guy is mentally ill. No question.
2) Haters discussed among themselves that he is probably doing it to jump on this latest bandwagon of sexual abuse claims (only no one seems to care about his fake ass, LOL). I think that might be a part of it, but I think it is more to prepare his next career move. I think he knows by now that his lawsuit is likely to get tossed. He is planning this new age guru thing as his next career. Vedic meditation teacher etc. He did say in his deposition that he was going to use his allegations to be "relevant and relatable" as a Vedic meditation teacher. So I think his blog will be mainly about that, these first few posts are just to lay the groundworks, to create a back story for himself in order to be "relevant and relatable" to his target audience.
3) As to the content of his writing:
I think it is interesting how empathic that so called "prophecy" is in his story. IMO that's his real issue: failing under the pressure of MJ's "prophecy". But you can't sue for a failed prophecy. Enter child sexual abuse allegations.
The part about him visualizing his child in sexually abusive situations to be able to feel anything about "his own" alleged sexual abuse is seriously creepy.
WTF?
For all Wade's insistance that his story is tpyical for sexual abuse victims (no, it is not), I have never seen any victim say creepy stuff like he does here. That they needed to visualize their children in sexually abusive situations to "connect to" their allegedly abused childhood self and muster up feelings about it. It's incredibly telling IMO that Wade needed such visualizations to even feel something about his alleged sexual abuse. That's because it never happened. So he creates a sick fantasy of it happening to his son to be able to build on that emotion. How pathological is this?
BTW, Wade talked about visualizing things to turn them into reality before. Only that was turning them in reality in the future, but I would expect this is even easier to do with whatever one wants to believe about his past. Just visualize a past for yourself. In a 2002 interview he advised to readers:
"Learn how to visualize. If (you) have a goal you’ve got to visualize every little aspect of it. You know, if I want to do a song for somebody, and I really want it happen, I’ll put myself in the situation. I’ll visualize what the studio looks like when we’re recording, I’ll picture myself walking to go get coffee, simple little things. But it just places you in the situation and makes it reality before it happens and then there’s not even a question that it’s going to happen. Every time I’ve done that, wholeheartedly, it’s always happened. It’s never failed." I also found the way his brother and sister learnt about his allegations bit convenient:
So just on the same day as Wade goes to his therapist to first "confess" his brother "in a playful tone" (WTF?) tells about a dream his wife saw about MJ sexually abusing Wade. To which Wade, who has "confessed" this to anyone (his therapist) only a couple of hours ago just "blurts" it out that "it is true". I don't know if there is any significance in how his brother and sister were told, but the story is off to me. Way too convenient and almost as if Wade is trying to give it a supernatural angle (ie. the dream).
Now, I don't think his brother and sister are with him in the plot. I think they are being lied to as well, just like Joy. But the story as is told by Wade is off to me and a bit convenient. (Not to mention another WTF moment in " “Dude, if he did molest little boys, why didn’t he molest me? I wasn’t sexy enough?"). I think he and Amanda probably planned this in advance and how they will use this gathering to introduce his sister and brother to Wade's allegations and this is not necessarily the full and genuine story. (I think Amanda is with Wade in it.)
I also found it interesting how he introduced Joy to the allegations:
I wonder if he did it this way because he knew Joy might have otherwise been sceptical and asked him inconvenient questions. But in the presence of another person she wouldn't and also hearing a therapist being in support of Wade would be more "convincing" (when in reality for many therapist very little is needed to be supportive of someone who claims sexual abuse - they are not investigators, their job is to believe their patients).
I have no doubt that Wade has mental illness, but his mental illness has nothing to do with MJ. It has to do probably with his family's history of mental illness (father commits suicide for being bipolar, cousin on his father's side commits suicide for being depressed). He is just dragging MJ and sexual abuse claims into it because that's the way he can make money with it. He probably also blames MJ for his career failing due to his "prophecy" - but again not being able to deal with a childhood "prophecy" in a healthy way is Wade's own mental illness, not MJ's fault.
From Robson’s complaint in court:
MJ was known to make such, sometimes maybe exaggerated comments to people as a way of inspiration and motivation (for example, he told Corey Feldman he was going to be a bigger actor than Marlon Brando LOL), but everyone besides Robson was able to handle it in a healthy way. Robson, however, took this so called “prophecy” so seriously that when he crumbled under the pressure of the job, and perhaps realizing that not only he was not going to be the next Spielberg, but even directing a Step Up movie was too big of a challenge for him, that triggered a nervous breakdown in him and left him purposeless. He writes in his blog post from 2017:
If that's not mentally ill...
Also, there seems to be a zeal in his new story to blame everything negative in his life on MJ from Wade’s failure as a movie director and inability to come to grips with the failure of a childhood “prophecy” to his overworking himself. Meanwhile there is hardly any mention of his mother, Joy Robson in his story (and if there is then only as a distant bystander). The mother, who, among other things, proudly declared in a 2011 radio interview that she made sure that Wade and his sister Chantal were never bored as children and always worked. In the same interview, just like in her deposition in 2016, she stated that Jackson was hardly present in their life at the time.
[Emphasis added.]
From the interview it is clear that Joy was a very ambitious stage mom who made her kids work overtime from an early age. However, in Wade’s new version of his life MJ is made out to be the scapegoat for every negative thing in his life – including his own or his mother’s professional or personal failures and even his father’s suicide in 2002. (Wade’s father had bipolar disorder – ie. manic depression - and committed suicide in 2002. In his complaint Wade hints at his father committing suicide because of anxiety and fear that MJ might have been sexually abusing Wade, even though Wade's own claim is that he never told or hinted to anyone until 2012 that he had allegedly been sexually abused. That includes his father, who did not even live with Wade, his sister and mother in the United States, but stayed back in Australia with Wade's older brother.)
Also consider that the therapist he went to and "confessed" to about his alleged sexual abuse isn't a sexual abuse specialist. He is called Dr. Larry Shaw and his field is dealing with people in high pressure jobs, both in entertainment and business - and especially those who are in those jobs due to their family's expectations of them. He wrote in a 2015 article:
www.hollywoodreporter.com/features/hollywood-dsm-industry-shrinks-reveal-817919 )
There you have Wade's real issue. Problem is that in reality to get out of the business, one needs more than an apple. You need finances to be able to do so. Especially if you are still young and have many years to live, a family, and a certain standard of living to maintain. A retirement in one’s 30s is costly. Enter child sexual abuse allegations.
Also, according another thing that prompted Wade to "confess" to his therapist, according to his blog, was a popular TED talk by Brené Brown about
“The Power of Vulnerability” that he was listening to on the way to his therapist. The talk is about “the courage to be imperfect”, to allow ourselves to be vulnerable and think that we do not have to be perfect to be worthy of love and connection. It also mentions how parents commit a mistake when they raise their children to be “perfect” and want
“to make sure [they] make the tennis team by fifth grade any Yale by seventh”, which mirrors Wade’s life who by the age of sixteen choreographed for international stars, such as Britney Spears. The lecture is more related to Wade’s struggle with career expectations and his struggle to be “perfect” in his job from an early childhood than sexual abuse.
And then the nonsense about his relationship with dance, directing and entertainment crumbling because it being associated with MJ to him.
Fact is that Robson never really abandoned those entertainment activities. While he claimed in his lawsuit that he was
“unable to continue directing in any manner or capacity whatsoever”, he actually continued to direct short films in Hawaii and advertised himself as a film director. Although at first those were just short commercials for non-profit and other local organizations, but slowly he sneaked his way back to the entertainment industry: he directed several dance and music videos for aspiring singers and dancers in Los Angeles – all the while claiming in his court documents (and never modifying or deleting those claims all through his four amended complaints) that he was unable to do those kind of jobs and never will be able to do them again, therefore he needed financial compensation. He also did not terminate his two entertainment companies, Wajero Entertainment and Light Tree Productions, which again seems to defy the claim that he was not expecting to work in the entertainment industry again.
Not only did Wade direct dance videos all the while he was claiming that he was so traumatized by its association with Michael Jackson that he would never be able to do it again, but he also taught his son to dance during that period and that using an advise that Michael Jackson used when advising people in dance! On June 19, 2015 Wade's wife, Amanda posted a photo of Wade teaching their son to dance on her Facebook and on her
Instagram. (Wade also posted the same photo the same day on his own Facebook.) She captioned it as
"Wade wisdom #1: "Don't think. If it feels good, you're doin it right."
Rather than it being Wade’s own wisdom, it actually echoes Michael Jackson’s philosophy in dancing and something that he would likely tell Wade as a child while teaching him to dance.
"I'll hear music playing and wonder why nobody else is moving. My body just has to. A real dancer is a person who can interpret the sounds he hears. You become the bass, you become the drum, you become the violin, the oboe. And this is all internal, not external. It's not about thinking. That's why when a dancer starts to count – one and two and three - he's thinking and all that should be gone. You can see it on their face if they're counting. Your expression has to be in line with what you're feeling in your body. So, in what I do, I don't even know where I'm going. It's just improvisation. It creates itself. But you still have to put your body through hell to express yourself. You have to be that dedicated."(Rabbi Shmuley Boteach - Honoring the Child Spirit: Inspiration and Learning from Our Children (Vanguard Press, 2011))
So Wade had no problem teaching his son the same activity that he claimed was so triggering and so associated with sexual abuse to him that he would never be able to do it again, so he needed financial compensation from Jackson's Estate and companies. That is even more bizarre when we consider Wade's above cited claims about visualizing his son in sexually abusive situations and that being his trigger for Wade's realization of his alleged childhood sexual abuse at Jackson's hands.
Not so surprisingly, by now Wade declared himself healed from those bad associations and he is back into all the entertainment activities that he claimed he would never be able to do again due to their association with Jackson to him: directing, dancing, choreography.
“Being that Michael Jackson was my foremost dance inspiration, my relationship with dance had been crumbling for years and could not initially withstand this healing shift in my life. Thankfully, enough healing has occurred that I am now able to consciously take back what I now know was always mine: my relationship with dance”, he said in an interview with Dance Informa in which he promoted his participation in the JUMP dance convention in September 2017.
(Wade Robson returns to the dance scene as faculty of JUMP, September 5, 2017,
www.danceinforma.com/2017/09/05/wade-robson-returns-to-the-dance-scene-as-faculty-of-jump/)Conveniently, his “healing” coincided with his lawsuit becoming more and more likely to be tossed in court.