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Post by Michaels Lover on Mar 22, 2019 19:19:26 GMT
I'm home on weekend! This is so awesome. Going back to hospital on monday
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Post by SoCav on Mar 22, 2019 21:08:08 GMT
^Awesome, enjoy your weekend in the comfort of home!
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Post by Michaels Lover on Mar 28, 2019 18:16:20 GMT
I'm going home on monday if EKG looks fine. They're taking one last one on monday and if it's ok I get to go home!!
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Post by Michaels Lover on Jul 19, 2019 14:44:27 GMT
I've been weaned off antidepressants! This will be the first time in over 15 years that I haven't taken them. Can't wait to see how it goes. Right now I'm just happy there's 2 less pills to take daily
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Post by TonyR on Jul 19, 2019 16:46:51 GMT
I've been weaned off antidepressants! This will be the first time in over 15 years that I haven't taken them. Can't wait to see how it goes. Right now I'm just happy there's 2 less pills to take daily Amazing. Don't underestimate how strong you must be to have achieved this. Massive respect. But if you ever do need to go back temporarily don't perceive that as failure. Well done 😀
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2019 8:36:05 GMT
I've been weaned off antidepressants! This will be the first time in over 15 years that I haven't taken them. Can't wait to see how it goes. Right now I'm just happy there's 2 less pills to take daily That's bloody brilliant. I hope it all goes your way. Here's to your good news!
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Post by Michaels Lover on Jul 20, 2019 15:39:50 GMT
Thank you both
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Post by aazzaabb on Jul 20, 2019 16:27:27 GMT
I've been weaned off antidepressants! This will be the first time in over 15 years that I haven't taken them. Can't wait to see how it goes. Right now I'm just happy there's 2 less pills to take daily Well done you! I was on antidepressants many years ago for a short time, but they took all my feelings away. They took away the lows but they also took away the highs and I was just this flatlined numb guy walking around. I threw them in the bin, I wouldn’t recommend that anyone do that of course because for a few months my brain chemistry felt extremely alien and I felt like a ghost walking around. I should have slowly come off them for sure, and as I say, I was only on them for a short while. So 15 years is a one day at a time journey. Nothing wrong with being on them either mind, if you can’t cope. I just felt there was nothing wrong with feeling sad or down or low from time to time. These are human emotions and it’s ok to feel them, and just know you’ll come out through the other side eventually and all will be ok. If you need to cry, cry. Crying is cathartic and therapeutic, and it’s healing. And it helps restore balance in the body. We are people after all. Well done again, and keep us posted. And as TonyR said, if you did need to go back on them, that’s ok to. Welcome to the land of emotional wrecks. 😂🙏💜🌠💫
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Post by Michaels Lover on Jul 21, 2019 6:14:11 GMT
I've been weaned off antidepressants! This will be the first time in over 15 years that I haven't taken them. Can't wait to see how it goes. Right now I'm just happy there's 2 less pills to take daily Well done you! I was on antidepressants many years ago for a short time, but they took all my feelings away. They took away the lows but they also took away the highs and I was just this flatlined numb guy walking around. I threw them in the bin, I wouldn’t recommend that anyone do that of course because for a few months my brain chemistry felt extremely alien and I felt like a ghost walking around. I should have slowly come off them for sure, and as I say, I was only on them for a short while. So 15 years is a one day at a time journey. Nothing wrong with being on them either mind, if you can’t cope. I just felt there was nothing wrong with feeling sad or down or low from time to time. These are human emotions and it’s ok to feel them, and just know you’ll come out through the other side eventually and all will be ok. If you need to cry, cry. Crying is cathartic and therapeutic, and it’s healing. And it helps restore balance in the body. We are people after all. Well done again, and keep us posted. And as TonyR said, if you did need to go back on them, that’s ok to. Welcome to the land of emotional wrecks. 😂🙏💜🌠💫 It sounds to me like you got the wrong kind of antidepressants. They're NOT supposed to take all your feelings away completely. I've always been an emotional wreck, with or without antidepressants. I've been able to feel highs and lows even though I've taken them.
But for me it was about more than feeling sad or down or low from time to time, I've had depression several times over the years. Last time was 5 years ago, so that's in the past now. And me, my psychiatric nurse and psychiatrist discussed if I really need the antidepressants anymore? I also have schizophrenia (which I was diagnosed with as recently as 2015), and one of the symptoms is that you can feel depressed from time to time, and it doesn't have anything to do with having a depression, but with schizophrenia directly. And I HAVE felt depressed because of it, so when I do feel depressed nowadays it's because of that. Not because I have a depression. And antidepressants can't do anything about that. So it's about finding the balance between what's what. I'm lucky I have a good psychiatrist and a good psychiatric nurse (who visits me once a week), but I also know the difference because I know myself and because I've experienced both.
And believe me, coming off them slowly, like I did, can be just as difficult. To tell you the truth, I don't feel very good at the moment because my brain chemistry is all fucked up. It's just one huge mess at the moment, and it can take several months before it goes away. I wake up with horrible anxiety attacks, sometimes several times during the night (but it's only while I'm sleeping, there's nothing during the day), and I have horrible, vivid nightmares every time I sleep. All night long, and even when I take a nap during the day. And yes, I have talked with my psychiatrist about it, and she says it's because of that. My brother was depressed for 6 months when he came off antidepressants, so I know it can take time. I just have to be patient!
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Post by aazzaabb on Jul 21, 2019 11:20:37 GMT
Well done you! I was on antidepressants many years ago for a short time, but they took all my feelings away. They took away the lows but they also took away the highs and I was just this flatlined numb guy walking around. I threw them in the bin, I wouldn’t recommend that anyone do that of course because for a few months my brain chemistry felt extremely alien and I felt like a ghost walking around. I should have slowly come off them for sure, and as I say, I was only on them for a short while. So 15 years is a one day at a time journey. Nothing wrong with being on them either mind, if you can’t cope. I just felt there was nothing wrong with feeling sad or down or low from time to time. These are human emotions and it’s ok to feel them, and just know you’ll come out through the other side eventually and all will be ok. If you need to cry, cry. Crying is cathartic and therapeutic, and it’s healing. And it helps restore balance in the body. We are people after all. Well done again, and keep us posted. And as TonyR said, if you did need to go back on them, that’s ok to. Welcome to the land of emotional wrecks. 😂🙏💜🌠💫 It sounds to me like you got the wrong kind of antidepressants. They're NOT supposed to take all your feelings away completely. I've always been an emotional wreck, with or without antidepressants. I've been able to feel highs and lows even though I've taken them.
But for me it was about more than feeling sad or down or low from time to time, I've had depression several times over the years. Last time was 5 years ago, so that's in the past now. And me, my psychiatric nurse and psychiatrist discussed if I really need the antidepressants anymore? I also have schizophrenia (which I was diagnosed with as recently as 2015), and one of the symptoms is that you can feel depressed from time to time, and it doesn't have anything to do with having a depression, but with schizophrenia directly. And I HAVE felt depressed because of it, so when I do feel depressed nowadays it's because of that. Not because I have a depression. And antidepressants can't do anything about that. So it's about finding the balance between what's what. I'm lucky I have a good psychiatrist and a good psychiatric nurse (who visits me once a week), but I also know the difference because I know myself and because I've experienced both. And believe me, coming off them slowly, like I did, can be just as difficult. To tell you the truth, I don't feel very good at the moment because my brain chemistry is all fucked up. It's just one huge mess at the moment, and it can take several months before it goes away. I wake up with horrible anxiety attacks, sometimes several times during the night (but it's only while I'm sleeping, there's nothing during the day), and I have horrible, vivid nightmares every time I sleep. All night long, and even when I take a nap during the day. And yes, I have talked with my psychiatrist about it, and she says it's because of that. My brother was depressed for 6 months when he came off antidepressants, so I know it can take time. I just have to be patient!
Didn’t mean to come across as though I was lecturing you. It’s only my own personal experience I’m talking about. When I say about feeling sad or down or low, I’m making a generalisation. You obviously have a few different issues there that I clearly know nothing about and don’t mean to come across as a know-all, or as though I’m speaking down to you. The complexities are very personal to each individual. My own experience was a completely different one to yours of course. There was a period of about 3 or 4 weeks many many years ago when I felt deeply sad and low, and barely opened my mouth to speak, but it was due to my personal circumstances at that time. Truth is, I feel I should have never been put on them to begin with. I feel it was a case of the doctor just giving me something to make me feel like that was the answer to my problem. I was simply grieving for my own personal problems and situation at the time. Nobody had died, I just had come through a lot up to that point of my life; violent father, broken home, no job, sleep deprived, social anxiety etc. I was 19 and feeling like a failure. My dance career was over before it even started and that was my true passion up to that point. A man I trusted sexually abused me and I felt humiliated giving a statement to the police. I’ve never said that online before! Fuck! I feel liberated and over it! It’s not something I’m comfortable or want to talk about obviously but ya know what, it was in another lifetime and I’m over it. Dance is what gave me balance and meaning growing up. After that I DJ-ayed for a few years but felt like an imposter. Anyway, I shouldn’t turn this into a therapy session about myself. This is about you and your wonderful progress. I hope you come through it and wish you the best of luck and sending you love and positive energy 🌠✌🏼💜
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Post by Michaels Lover on Jul 21, 2019 20:52:48 GMT
It sounds to me like you got the wrong kind of antidepressants. They're NOT supposed to take all your feelings away completely. I've always been an emotional wreck, with or without antidepressants. I've been able to feel highs and lows even though I've taken them.
But for me it was about more than feeling sad or down or low from time to time, I've had depression several times over the years. Last time was 5 years ago, so that's in the past now. And me, my psychiatric nurse and psychiatrist discussed if I really need the antidepressants anymore? I also have schizophrenia (which I was diagnosed with as recently as 2015), and one of the symptoms is that you can feel depressed from time to time, and it doesn't have anything to do with having a depression, but with schizophrenia directly. And I HAVE felt depressed because of it, so when I do feel depressed nowadays it's because of that. Not because I have a depression. And antidepressants can't do anything about that. So it's about finding the balance between what's what. I'm lucky I have a good psychiatrist and a good psychiatric nurse (who visits me once a week), but I also know the difference because I know myself and because I've experienced both. And believe me, coming off them slowly, like I did, can be just as difficult. To tell you the truth, I don't feel very good at the moment because my brain chemistry is all fucked up. It's just one huge mess at the moment, and it can take several months before it goes away. I wake up with horrible anxiety attacks, sometimes several times during the night (but it's only while I'm sleeping, there's nothing during the day), and I have horrible, vivid nightmares every time I sleep. All night long, and even when I take a nap during the day. And yes, I have talked with my psychiatrist about it, and she says it's because of that. My brother was depressed for 6 months when he came off antidepressants, so I know it can take time. I just have to be patient!
Didn’t mean to come across as though I was lecturing you. It’s only my own personal experience I’m talking about. When I say about feeling sad or down or low, I’m making a generalisation. You obviously have a few different issues there that I clearly know nothing about and don’t mean to come across as a know-all, or as though I’m speaking down to you. The complexities are very personal to each individual. My own experience was a completely different one to yours of course. There was a period of about 3 or 4 weeks many many years ago when I felt deeply sad and low, and barely opened my mouth to speak, but it was due to my personal circumstances at that time. Truth is, I feel I should have never been put on them to begin with. I feel it was a case of the doctor just giving me something to make me feel like that was the answer to my problem. I was simply grieving for my own personal problems and situation at the time. Nobody had died, I just had come through a lot up to that point of my life; violent father, broken home, no job, sleep deprived, social anxiety etc. I was 19 and feeling like a failure. My dance career was over before it even started and that was my true passion up to that point. A man I trusted sexually abused me and I felt humiliated giving a statement to the police. I’ve never said that online before! Fuck! I feel liberated and over it! It’s not something I’m comfortable or want to talk about obviously but ya know what, it was in another lifetime and I’m over it. Dance is what gave me balance and meaning growing up. After that I DJ-ayed for a few years but felt like an imposter. Anyway, I shouldn’t turn this into a therapy session about myself. This is about you and your wonderful progress. I hope you come through it and wish you the best of luck and sending you love and positive energy 🌠✌🏼💜 Oh, I didn't think you came across as you were lecturing me or anything like that! You simply told about your experiences, and I wanted to tell you about mine. And this thread is not all about me everyone can talk about what they feel like. But thank you for your kind words
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Post by NatureCriminal7896 on Jan 17, 2022 6:53:49 GMT
i have depression and anxiety. i had depression my whole life but my anxiety came on when i got older like a teenager. i been going to therapy for almost 12 years now. i have gotten better over the past 12 years but i still struggle with them. i'm learning how to stay away from stress and things that trigger them.
depression is my biggest but my anxiety comes around when it wants too. i also have a learning delay that can also affect how i learn and communicate.
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Post by butterflies2 on Jan 17, 2022 21:49:10 GMT
I’m on meds for bipolar disorder and borderline personality. I don’t get paranoid or manic like before, but I feel it numbs my emotions. Lately I’ve been really depressed and feeling burnt out and trying to figure out the next step. I also have issues with memory and concentration that impacts me when I’m trying to learn things
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Post by MattyJam on May 15, 2022 17:43:00 GMT
I’m on meds for bipolar disorder and borderline personality. I don’t get paranoid or manic like before, but I feel it numbs my emotions. Lately I’ve been really depressed and feeling burnt out and trying to figure out the next step. I also have issues with memory and concentration that impacts me when I’m trying to learn things Sorry to hear this butterflies. I too suffer from depression and at times, I just think it's life. I genuinely struggle with life, everyday things that others seem to find easy. I seem to carry a certain sadness inside me or a heaviness, that is inexplicable. There doesn't appear to be any reason for it or any particular trigger. I had it when I was a teenager but it went away. And then it came back again after MJ died and it's never really gone. I'm not relating it to his passing, I just think that was a traumatic event that triggered something that was already existing inside me. I've learnt to live with it pretty well throughout my thirties and even though it's something that never really goes away, it is much less all-encompassing than it was in my twenties (largely thanks to medication numbing my emotions). I love this quote from Morrissey about depression: “I refer to it as the 'black dog'. It doesn't go away. It's usually the very first thing when you wake up, there is no cure, but to be honest, I think it's just a part of being a sensitive, open human."
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Post by butterflies2 on May 15, 2022 18:10:47 GMT
Yes, mjs death really changed me too, was diagnosed bipolar few months after it though before it was labelled anxiety/depression. Sorry to hear you’ve had a hard time too. Things have been a little better since my last post. I’m working regularly now but find it hard to learn new things a lot of times
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